Archive for June 12th, 2013


scorched earth

scorched earth 2

Some of us live life unable to face our imperfect pasts. I know. I have been there myself. We go on, making the same mistakes time after time, and not improving one bit.

Yesterday morning I received an e-mail from a friend, filling me in a little on the activities of someone I’d vouched for, but who ended up screwing my friend. I feel awful. I do not know, even now, the full extent to which my friend was taken advantage of.

It is one thing to take risks and trust others, as it turns out foolishly, and take the consequences for one’s own judgments. But it is quite another thing to assure others to take a risk based on one’s judgment which circumstances prove to have been unwarranted.

I have decided that from here on out, I must work alone. I know my own heart, but apparently not the hearts of others. Most adults, even some readers of this blog, seem too motivated by their own wants and needs. They cannot put the needs of others before their own. They prefer to live their lives without regard for the damage they do to others.

Maybe I will change my mind at some point in the future, but for the time being I will eschew the approaches of new people who volunteer to become involved in this work. It’s too hard knowing who is a friend or who is a foe.

Last night I talked on the phone with my friend, and despite our recent troubles, I was reassured that our friendship is intact.


Groove of the Day 

Listen to The Charlatins UK performing “The Only One I Know”